It’s not always as easy as it sounds. It doesn’t always come as quickly as we would like.
Despite our best intentions and deepest longings, sometimes our hearts are just a bit too hard. Sometimes our eyes are just a bit too blind. Sometimes our understanding is just a bit too dull. Sometimes our whole selves are just a bit too something.
That’s the funny thing about faith: What we need most often eludes us. It is outside of our control. It doesn’t always work to turn trust on and off like a light switch, or to turn love on and off like a faucet. Faith is more of a gift than a paycheck: It can be received, but not earned.
If you wish you could believe more than you do, have patience with yourself. Give yourself grace. Be grateful for at least the desire for belief welling up within you.
That hunger is the subtle beginning of God pouring out faith to you like a gift.
