Sometimes it feels like God is silently for you and the whole world is loudly against you.
It’s taken me a long time to realize this: My enemies are mostly in my head. I mean this in two ways:
First, I’m making a lot of it up. The world is not really conspiring against me. I’m not truly that important; I’m not on other peoples’ minds nearly as much as I assume.
Second, my real enemies are not “out there” but “in here.” My worst enemies are my own thoughts. Those negative and adversarial voices in my own mind. Whether the echoes of people who have hurt me in the past, demons messing with my thoughts, or my own imaginative negativity bias—they’re not actually what one might call “real.” They pose no real threat to me beyond me feeling that they do.
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